Unfortunately...🥀

Bismillah.

As you noticed, I don't use custom domain for my blog anymore. I've been paying for a few years, but I have no motivation to write at all. I'm not generous enough to keep paying while abandoning the blog, hoping that the mood will come soon. Nope. I know that won't happen in the near future. But I won't forget the feeling of having a dot com right after my 'brand'. 🌼

I've been 'busy' entertaining myself by playing games and binge-watching some dramas, as an excuse to keep my sanity in a time like this. After 4 months staying at home (except for buying groceries), I started to go to various places. I begin to feel at ease. But this is not right, isn't it? For the last few days, the cases increased by more than 3,000. Not a good sign. Corona still have a long way to vanish completely. It's like starting over. It sucks. But I know, all of this has meaning. Allah never do a thing that has no meaning. Eventhough it's a bad thing in our eyes, doesn't mean it's meaningless. We can always learn a life lesson after the storm.

Anyway. I've posted more than 100 posts in the past, hmm, 7 years? So little 😂

I admit that I've been thinking of it as a burden. To keep posting and everything. To keep my post useful to others. I tried to write longer post to make it looks a little bit more informative, but it turns out to be some blabbering.

I was seeing a blog as a diary, and when I try to make it informative, it lost its purpose as one. My posts was based on my thoughts, yes, but it's not spontaneous like a diary in my mind. Well, I continue to make use of a blog I made back in my middle school year, mainly to write about my crushes in the past, so the idea of it being a useful blog kinda burden me.

I don't want to stop using a blog, since it's been a part of my life in more than half of it. But I don't want to think of it as a burden, so I'll write when I have the mood. And I won't force myself to write long post. I have a notebook that can fulfil my urge to share about games, dramas, and some private thoughts that I can't make public, so I'm happy 😊

For all my subscribers, thank you for supporting me all these years. I feel grateful. You can keep subscribing, or you can unsubscribe, if you think an update on my blog doesn't worth any spaces in your e-mail. Feel free to do either of it ^^

Thank you so much for everything, and see you on the next post!